The "eyes" have it...again!

I've put off writing this post for a while...

As I write this, my Fuch's symptoms have returned after about a month of clear eyesight. In my humanness, I can only ask "why?" and pray that they may go away again. I know God doesn't mind me asking, as long as I continue to trust in Him and know that everything He allows, He allows for His perfect and greater purpose in my life and for His glory.

Although I'm saddened and frustrated to have this "thorn" back in my flesh, I am truly thankful for the time I had with clear vision. There is a song that keeps going through my mind regarding this situation, it's a praise song that we sing at church. They lyrics say, "You give and take away, you give and take away. My heart will choose to say, Lord blessed be your name. Blessed be the name of the Lord, blessed be the Lord."

So, what do I mean by Lord? Usually, we refer to God as Lord, God our Father, etc...when we pray. There are many names in the Bible, for God. God refers to Himself with many other titles. The names reflect His character, purposes, and His attributes. God reveals His power and glory to His people through His names.

One of my favorite names for God is Jehovah-Rophe or Jehovah-Rapha,"the Lord God heals." (Psalm 147:3) It means to restore something to its original or normal state. God wants to heal us. However, it's not always a physical healing we need the most. Because of sin, we all need spiritual healing and sometimes we need emotional healing. Our 'land' may even need to be healed.

Another one of my favorite names for God is "El Roi." El Roi is "the God of seeing." He sees everything. This name may be used to ask God to reveal something to us by opening our spiritual eyes. God sees it all. The God who sees, or El Roi means that God sees the suffering and afflictions of His people. He will help us if we are humble and call upon Him. (Hebrews 2:18)

These are two of the names of God that I have chosen to call upon in my life, for I have needed spiritual healing. I've had many physical afflictions and even some emotional things from which I've needed healing. The Lord is faithful and has been with me through thick and thin. Do I always "feel" His presence? No, but I know He is there. Each time I pray and read His word, I have experienced God. If God chooses to permanently heal my eyes, I will give Him glory; and if He chooses not to...I will give Him glory.

Either way, I continue to choose to glorify God, experience Him and His work in my life and I will wait in expectation to see what He will do next, in and through me.

Stay tuned...

"Fickle Fuchs"

Fuchs is often referred to as fickle Fuchs because the symptoms can be so unpredictable and vary so much person to person. The disease typically begins progressing in a person's 60's or later, but there are teenagers who present with symptoms. It is genetic, but some people never have any symptoms at all, while other family member's progresses to the point where corneal transplants are necessary or blindness will ensue.

It is also fickle within each person. The fluctuation and changes in my eyes on a daily basis are amazing. Some mornings things look very foggy and others...not so much. Some mornings my eyes are VERY watery, and others...not so much. Some mornings my eyes are VERY sensitive to light and others...not so much. Some mornings I can read from my large print Bible, other mornings...not so much. Some mornings my sight clears up pretty well by noon or early afternoon, some days...not so much.

I really don't have days where I can go outdoors without my dark sunglasses anymore; at least not without my eyes watering and burning really bad and hurting and getting a migraine. This makes it hard to do photography sometimes. There are days where I must wear my sunglasses indoors, as well, especially if the lighting is flourescent. Some stores are really painful on my eyes.

Some days even with my eye drops they don't ever totally clear up, now. That's normal as the disease progresses. It takes longer and longer for them to clear as the corneal swelling goes down until enough cells die that they cannot dry up and the fog, and watering and poor eyesight continue and blindness is eminent unless a corneal transplant or divine healing happens. That's just the nature of this beast. I won't mention the painful breaking blisters that come along with that extra retention in the cornea because that will get me down unnecessarily. I may not have to get to that stage, and I'm not there now. So, I will not borrow trouble from tomorrow.

"Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life." Matthew 6:26-27

God instructs me not to worry. He loves me and will take care of me no matter what happens. I am very valuable to Him. (I know I just quoted these verses in the last post, but they are very special to me and God keeps bringing them to my mind and comforting my heart with them.)

Since there's only so much I can do about my eyes and symptoms, I will just keep taking advantage of my good days and rely on my audio Bible and such the other days. I will continue to trust the Lord and do His work as I wait on Him.

Obama's Brilliant Plan-Socialized Medicine

Well, I was thinking...maybe too much, about Obama and this coming January and the next four years. It's quite scary to think of what he may do to this country, it's citizens, taxes, economy and who knows what else.

The future of my eyesight is at stake here, and that's no comforting thought. To think that I may need a corneal transplant in the next four years and yet not be able to get it because of socialized medicine. I may go blind waiting for the doctor or donor tissue I need if our health care changes dramatically. I used to think HMO's were bad and that we didn't have much say over our health care with those, but what Obama plans to do will make HMO's look desirable! This type of plan has failed in so many other countries, so why in the world does he think it's a good plan for "free" America? Well, that's a whole other blog post for a different type of blog.

It's a good thing I know the Lord and that He has a plan to prosper and not to harm me. I thank the Lord that my sight is in His hands and I can trust my future to Him, because otherwise I might tend to worry myself sick over the future and the coming administration of Obama.

"Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life." Matthew 6:26-27

I love these verses. They give me such comfort! I know that faith in God will get me through whatever lies ahead for me and for our country.